Saturday, March 12, 2005

The bittersweet nature of the job hunt

The bittersweet nature of the job hunt


So, here's the great news -- I've made the top cuts for three jobs so far. Two 4-years and one CC. Found out about the CC yesterday. So I know that I've made one top 5-10, one top 9 (waiting for the campus interview cut), and one top 5, campus interview ticket booked today. Totally freaked about the last one, because it came out of the blue, no prelim interview, except group info stuff at the conference. Really like the person I've spoken with, and it turns out we are somewhat acquainted, having been to a couple of the same conferences (one a very small one) and have mutual acquaintances. I am so incredibly jazzed, nervous, hyped up, worried, excited ...

... and then I went to the back yard today. It's really sunny and pretty. The fish are swimming in the pond AHD dug out all by himself. The veggie beds need weeding and prepping. We have a mole who puts piles of dirt allover the yard. I'm half-hoping the cats will do something about it. The cats and dog love the yard. I haven't finished painting the picket fence. And ADH is in the middle of a bathroom remodel.

But I'm in the running for jobs! And they are all jobs that seem pretty damned good! And more ads are coming out. It finally looks like I can do what I've trained to do. I've spent a lot of time on this, and I'm ready to make a move.

Then, last night, I went to a party with my colleagues, who are so damned cool. I really love these people. And the girls across the street informed me that I have been formally adopted as their other aunt. I have ties here. If I get a job elsewhere, I will have to leave a lot of this. But people can always visit, can't they? I just won't be there to go to the plays and concerts and soccer games (they were serious about the adoption -- and it's not like they don't already have, like, three sets of aunts and uncles living nearby, plus 5 other sets!). And I'm over 90% sure I can keep up an adjunct load that is full-time (two schools) and will keep me in benefits. That makes me far better off than many of my peers.

And I still want the TT job. Not just because it will lead to tenure, but because I don't want to worry. I want to put down academic roots and, even if I'm teaching somewhere with an insane 5-5 load, keep up in my field. I want to be able to build long-term relationships with students, and not have to e-mail the ones who want to keep in touch every time I change campuses. And I hate that we live in a world where it's so hard to have one thing without sacrificing so much else.

But hell -- no one's offered me a job yet!

Update!!


TWO campus interviews!!

6 comments:

AiE said...

Hey, great news! You don't have a job yet, but you're well on your way.

(Of course, I do know somewhat how you feel. Filmmaker, my spouse, flies off for an interview today. Now that he's so close to getting the job, it'll be that much worse if he doesn't.)

All of this is great news for you ... and you certainly will be able to put down new roots wherever you land!

Ancarett said...

Picking up and moving is daunting but you're right that the TT job is such a relief that it's worthwhile. And, yes, people can always visit, though, sadly, they often don't.

timna said...

sounds great. hope you have many choices in the end.

it's not always the visits - I see people at conferences and that helps me keep in touch with a wider network.

Another Damned Medievalist said...

Thanks, everybody! More good news -- it looks like my adjunct dance card is full, if I don't get something TT.

New Kid on the Hallway said...

Good luck! I hope it all works out. The TT job is a big deal - but picking up and moving can suck, too. So I understand the bittersweet part.

bitchphd said...

Excellent! Congratulations, and I hope you get a great job. Yay you!