should I or shouldn't I?
So there is one reason at SLAC that I really do not love it. It's nothing I can do anything about, sadly. It will play itself out, one way or another.
Otherwise, I love my job, mostly. I love my colleagues, mostly, and I have made really good friends here. I am happy to work with them AND play with them. I love working for Superdean. He's a great boss in almost every way (nobody's perfect), and knows me well enough to nag me about my scholarship. Frankly, I could use a bit more nagging, but that's not really his job. I also just get along really well with him.
We have a cool new Provost and an energetic BoT, and I think that the direction SLAC is taking is one I like. In 5-10 years, I think we may have moved along to much closer to the kind of place where I want to end up. It's a neat idea to think of myself as someone who can help take it there.
Speaking of which, I really think that there's a chance of building a much stronger program, one known for producing good teachers, public historians, and grad students.
And I really like my students. Sometimes I wish they were more driven, but as human beings, they are some of the nicest I've taught.
So why am I thinking about applying for the really cool job? Especially when I really am not competitive compared to many of the candidates?
Well, besides working with an incredibly cool scholar I really admire, that is?
Because honestly, as much as I love SLAC, I sometimes feel that I work best when surrounded by people who function at the levels I aspire to. When I surround myself with people who are good teachers AND good scholars, I find myself more energized and more productive. It's not that SLAC doesn't do that, but ...
so, my loyal readers, should I or shouldn't I? Am I disloyal to SLAC if I do? Am I being selfish?
Or is it just smart to keep reaching higher?