Monday, February 27, 2006

A little update

A little update



Well, I've officially accepted the position. I'm really happy. I've received welcome letters from future colleagues ... wow! And I'm feeling really chuffed because I got a call on Saturday with an invitation for a campus interview and an e-mail a few minutes ago asking if I were interested in a phone interview. I know I've made the right decision, too, because when I turned down the interviews, there was no "but what if ..." feeling.

But now that I don't have to look for a job, I really need to get working. So if I keep a relatively low profile for the next little while, it's because I'm trying to write. I've set myself a draft date for the end of March -- that'll be interesting -- so I have April to revise. Yipes!

In Other News



Really looking for someone to hold the next Ancient/Medieval Carnivalesque -- in March! Please, please, please, does someone want to do it? Remember, Carnivalesque is often interdisciplinary, so feel free to step in!

Saturday, February 25, 2006

On Pseudonymity

On Pseudonymity


Yeah, it's all over the place again. And you know what? I did tell one of the people on the hiring committee at SLAC I had a blog, and she didn't care. But I'm not going to be advertising it, and I expect I'll still be blogging under this nom de plume. Because, you know, my pseudonym isn't all about hiding from the world. It's a persona that tends to reveal certain parts of me much more than others. One of those parts is the academic me, but it is not the professional me. By that, I mean that I cannot really separate myself as a person from myself as a teacher and wannabe- successful-and-respected-by-my-peers (or at least someone not considered an idiot) academic. I'm never going to be a super-scholar, and that's not what motivates me. I'm motivated by the facts that I love History -- especially my period -- and I love the business of teaching students to think like historians. I think that's the me that is ADM -- along with lots of professional insecurities I'm not afraid to put out there. But there is a lot more that I don't write about, because, well, this is public, people. The personal things I choose to write about are things that are very much connected to how I deal with being ADM. They're things I don't mind sharing with people I consider colleagues and friends.

But there is sometimes a false intimacy created by the internets. I've tried hard in my blogging not to cross that line, something that is very difficult for the RL, whole ADM, because I tend to divulge more than might be wise. So there is a lot I don't blog. And there's a lot I don't think is appropriate for me to blog, because it doesn't fit my ideas of professional or ethical behavior. A lot of self-censorship happens here.

Still, blogging has been great for me. Blogging pseudonymously has been better. This is why: Often in the RL world of academia, we are judged by the kind of jobs we have, and the kinds of work we do. And, of course, how much of it we do. I'm a medievalist -- hierarchies work for me. But I've also been around long enough to know that there are lots of idiots who have great name recognition and publication lists that are miles long, and some really smart and nice people who will never be on the academics' "A-list." Blogging as ADM has allowed me to interact with colleagues in my own field and in other disciplines as an equal. Lots of these people I might never have met otherwise, because the connections one makes as an adjunct mostly at CCs are vastly different than those one makes if one is a productive scholar at a reputable college or university. That's how it is. The system cuts out the people considered 'unworthy' (which, if you've ever taught at a good CC or met a lot of people scraping by as adjuncts, you know is just bullshit in at least 2/3 of the cases). Blogging let me beat the system.

OK -- I should also say that it wasn't just blogging. I happen to be very fortunate in that the Late Antique/Early Medieval community seems to be one of the warmest and most friendly academic circles around. Going to their conferences did wonders for making me feel like I was still a member of a larger community of really smart and cool people, as well as making me feel guilty for not being more productive! But those conferences are rare. Blogging helps me to feel that I am a member of the larger academic community on a daily basis. It keeps me accountable to myself. It makes me want to push myself to do well, rather than settling into low gear and just getting by with my RL colleagues and students knowing I'm a kick-ass teacher and colleague. Yep -- that's me -- motivated by peer pressure. I'm joining a very small department. I really like the people. But in many ways, SLAC will be more of a challenge. I'll have to be more actively productive with equally minimal library facilities, and no one else on the campus who has much of a clue as to what I do. i therefore anticipate that I'll be blogging as ADM for a good long while.

But in the meantime, and this is why I started this post, at Kzoo I will be outing myself to other bloggers who are willing to keep my not-all-that-secret identity on the down-low. I'll be meeting a bunch of my blogfriends IRL anyway, and there's a blogger panel where I know many of the panelists IRL or beyond the blog world. It kinda makes sense, since most of the people I know there are people I "know" from blogging or haven't seen in close to 20 years! So if you're a blogger, feel free to ask. See you there. Right now, I'm going to wait for the migraine that just hit to go away, and work on the Kzoo paper, so I don't embarrass myself in front of y'all!

Thursday, February 23, 2006

Ahem

ahem



I am in shock. Not exactly sure how I feel -- there's so much to think about. Sad and ecstatic all at once. I can now stop looking, if I like. Nothing in writing yet, and I have the weekend to think (and look over the holdins in the library so I can negotiate some purchases to make sure I can teach my classes ... but, yeah. Got to talk to the other places in the running, too, but I don't know that they can move fast enough to make me turn down a sure thing. Yay, SLAC!

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

One reason I like my department chair

One reason I like my department chair ... he sends me funny stuff!



It's long so I've put it below the cut. And I don't know who wrote it, but it's pretty funny, I think. I give you ... the l33t version of WWII.




Hitler[AoE] has joined the game.*
*Eisenhower has joined the game.*
*paTTon has joined the game.*
*Churchill has joined the game.*
*benny-tow has joined the game.*
*T0J0 has joined the game.*
*Roosevelt has joined the game.*
*Stalin has joined the game.*
*deGaulle has joined the game.*
Roosevelt: hey sup
T0J0: y0
Stalin: hi
Churchill: hi
Hitler[AoE]: cool, i start with panzer tanks!
paTTon: lol more like panzy tanks
T0JO: lol
Roosevelt: o this fockin sucks i got a depression!
benny-tow: haha america sux
Stalin: hey hitler you dont fight me i dont fight u, cool?
Hitler[AoE]; sure whatever
Stalin: cool
deGaulle: **** Hitler rushed some1 help
Hitler[AoE]: lol byebye frenchy
Roosevelt: i dont got **** to help, sry
Churchill: wtf the luftwaffle is attacking me
Roosevelt: get antiair guns
Churchill: i cant afford them
benny-tow: u n00bs know what team talk is?
paTTon: stfu
Roosevelt: o yah hit the navajo button guys
deGaulle: eisenhower ur worthless come help me quick
Eisenhower: i cant do **** til rosevelt gives me an army
paTTon: yah hurry the fock up
Churchill: d00d im gettin pounded
deGaulle: this is fockin weak u guys suck
*deGaulle has left the game.*
Roosevelt: im gonna attack the axis k?
benny-tow: with what? ur wheelchair?
benny-tow: lol did u mess up ur legs AND ur head?
Hitler[AoE]: ROFLMAO
T0J0: lol o no america im comin 4 u
Roosevelt: wtf! thats bullsh1t u fags im gunna kick ur asses
T0JO: not without ur harbors u wont! lol
Roosevelt: u little biotch ill get u
Hitler[AoE]: wtf
Hitler[AoE]: america hax, u had depression and now u got a huge fockin army
Hitler[AoE]: thats bullsh1t u hacker
Churchill: lol no more france for u hitler
Hitler[AoE]: tojo help me!
T0J0: wtf u want me to do, im on the other side of the world retard
Hitler[AoE]: fine ill clear you a path
Stalin: WTF u arsshoel! WE HAD A FoCKIN TRUCE
Hitler[AoE]: i changed my mind lol
benny-tow: haha
benny-tow: hey ur losing ur guys in africa im gonna need help in italy soon sum1
T0J0: o **** i cant help u i got my hands full
Hitler[AoE]: im 2 busy 2 help
Roosevelt: yah thats right ***** im comin for ya
Stalin: church help me
Churchill: like u helped me before? sure ill just sit here
Stalin: dont be an arss
Churchill: dont be a commie. oops too late
Eisenhower: LOL
benny-tow: hahahh oh sh1t help
Hitler: o man ur focked
paTTon: oh what now biotch
Roosevelt: whos the cripple now lol
*benny-tow has been eliminated.*
benny-tow: lame
Roosevelt: gj patton
paTTon: thnx
Hitler[AoE]: WTF eisenhower hax hes killing all my sh1t
Hitler[AoE]: quit u hacker so u dont ruin my record
Eisenhower: Nuts!
benny~tow: wtf that mean?
Eisenhower: meant to say nutsack lol finger slipped
paTTon: coming to get u hitler u paper hanging hun cocksocker
Stalin: rofl
T0J0: HAHAHHAA
Hitler[AoE]: u guys are fockin gay
Hitler[AoE]: ur never getting in my city
*Hitler[AoE] has been eliminated.*
benny~tow: OMG u noob you killed yourself
Eisenhower: ROFLOLOLOL
Stalin: OMG LMAO!
Hitler[AoE]: WTF i didnt click there omg this game blows
*Hitler[AoE] has left the game*
paTTon: hahahhah
T0J0: WTF my teammates are n00bs
benny~tow: shut up noob
Roosevelt: haha wut a moron
paTTon: wtf am i gunna do now?
Eisenhower: yah me too
T0J0: why dont u attack me o thats right u dont got no ships lololol
Eisenhower: fock u
paTTon: lemme go thru ur base commie
Stalin: go to hell lol
paTTon: fock this sh1t im goin afk
Eisenhower: yah this is gay
*Roosevelt has left the game.*
Hitler[AoE]: wtf?
Eisenhower: sh1t now we need some1 to join
*tru_m4n has joined the game.*
tru_m4n: hi all
T0J0: hey
Stalin: sup
Churchill: hi
tru_m4n: OMG OMG OMG i got all his stuff!
tru_m4n: NUKES! HOLY **** I GOT NUKES
Stalin: d00d gimmie some plz
tru_m4n: no way i only got like a couple
Stalin: omg dont be gay gimmie nuculer secrets
T0J0: wtf is nukes?
T0J0: holy ****holy****hoyl****!
*T0J0 has been eliminated.*
*The Allied team has won the game!*
Eisenhower: awesome!
Churchill: gg noobs no re
T0J0: thats bull**** u fockin suck
*T0J0 has left the game.*
*Eisenhower has left the game.*
Stalin: next game im not going to be on ur team, u guys didnt help me for ****
Churchill: wutever, we didnt need ur help neway dumbarss
tru_m4n: l8r all
benny~tow: bye
Churchill: l8r
Stalin: fock u all
tru_m4n: shut up commie lol
*tru_m4n has left the game.*
benny~tow: lololol u commie
Churchill: ROFL
Churchill: bye commie
*Churchill has left the game.*
*benny~tow has left the game.*
Stalin: i hate u all fags
*Stalin has left the game.*
paTTon: lol no1 is left
paTTon: weeeee i got a jeep
*paTTon has been eliminated.*
paTTon: o sh1t!
*paTTon has left the game.*

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

If I were a book rep ...

If I were a book rep ...


... I would do a couple of things. Like, I dunno ... check out in advance what the different faculty specialties were before wasting their time. Like ... oh ... sending an e-mail to make an appointment or come by during office hours. I used to be in sales, and you know? One of my guiding rules was not to piss off my customers before trying to sell them something. Go figure.

Monday, February 20, 2006

Too Funny!

Too Funny!


Dean Dad writes a freshman essay comparing and contrasting Curious George and Brokeback Mountain. Go. Read. Be both sad and amused at the horrible accuracy.

update: Via Ralph Luker at Cliopatria, this review of the latest by Chris Wickham and Julia MH Smith by RI Moore. If you are a medievalist, or teach about the Middle Ages, it's well worth reading.

Sunday, February 19, 2006

Info from the Northeasterners

Info from the Northeasterners



I know I've got readers in the NY/NJ area. I've been invited to interview in your area. I know nothing about it, in terms of commute, geography, etc. I don't want to waste my time or theirs if I won't be able to afford to live there -- and the pay is acceptable for most parts of the country -- including where I live now. But I have a nasty feeling that it isn't so good for that part of the country. If anyone has advice, want's details, please email me at another_damned_medievalist AT hotmail DOT com. Thanks!

The post that went missing

The post that went missing


This post seems to have disappeared the last time I updated ... weird.

Help -- these are things I always forget to look up, till I pull out the stupid laws and have to teach them. First, does anybody have a reference for relative value of the denarii/solidi in the Salic laws (in today's money)?? Second, in the chrenecruda passage, does anyone know the significance of (or a reference for) the "jumping over the hedge" bit?

Saturday, February 18, 2006

More Personality Testing

More Personality Testing



As seen at Pilgrim/Heretic's:











Your #1 Match: ENFJ




The Giver

You strive to maintain harmony in relationships, and usually succeed.
Articulate and enthusiastic, you are good at making personal connections.
Sometimes you idealize relationships too much - and end up being let down.
You find the most energy and comfort in social situations ... where you shine.

You would make a good writer, human resources director, or psychologist.


Your #2 Match: ENFP




The Inspirer

You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends.
You are also unconventional, irreverant, and unimpressed by authority and rules.
Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives.
You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're quite the storyteller!

You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.


Your #3 Match: ESFJ




The Caregiver

You are sympathetic and caring, putting friends and family first.
A creature of habit, you prefer routines and have trouble with change.
You love being in groups - whether you're helping people or working on a project.
You are good at listening, laughing, and bringing out the best in people.

You would make a great nurse, social worker, or teacher.





Hmmmm. But I generally test as ENFJ or ENTJ, so I'm not all that surprised.


What a day



So, today I helped the Vulcanologist move into her new place. Also there were the Mathemetician, the Geographer (Vulcanologist's SO), Professor Kinsey, and a couple of other friends. V. lived in a second-story flat -- but only one short flight of stairs. The new flat?? A third-floor walk-up. Sooooo tired, and I didn't carry as much stuff as some, due to my expertise in truck packing. It took about three hours longer than I thought it would, but still, it was fun to be with people I really like. Then, over to X's, where I packed up some furniture and boxes of miscellaneous foods and odds and ends that he wanted to get rid of. He's moving in with the new gf, and frankly, I can use the furniture, even though it's all kind of a hodgepodge of styles. Still to do this weekend:
  • Clean up house a bit
  • mark review papers
  • mark the last three weeks of online discussion (oy!)
  • mark online quizzes for two classes
  • mark one class's journals
  • Give class participation grades for two classes for the half-term
  • re-read the Vitae Caroli Magni (yeah, it's in Latin in case a student googles them -- but you know the book -- two vitae translated by Thorpe
  • prep for talking about Absolutism next week
  • see about booking a ticket to fly across the continent for a job interview, if I can make it work
  • worry about whether I got the job at SLAC where I interviewed last week
  • Read for Kzoo paper
  • probably a bunch of other stuff I can't remember due to the brain fry.


Oh -- and tonight I need to watch the recent Julius Caesar TV series -- one of my students wrote a review of it, so I suppose I should watch it ...

If you don't hear from me for a couple of days, I'm just being swamped.

Thursday, February 16, 2006

More Updates

More Updates



I'm exhausted from flying out and interviewing all day. The good news: at the risk of jinxing it, I think it went pretty well. Other-coastal SLAC was very nice. I really liked the people, the students were very nice, and I think it's a good fit. I hope they do, too. I especially liked the women in the department -- junior colleague and emerita. Really seemed to click with them both -- and one is on the committee! In the meantime, I have a phone interview at CC in very desirable area tomorrow. So I'm on the long shortlist there. And with luck, I'll hear something about current position before I hear back from SLAC. Damn, I want them to offer me the job!

But until I can say more, please feel free to contribute to my Johari Window, if you haven't already.

profile pic

Monday, February 13, 2006

Interview Update

Interview Update



Well, I haven't heard anything from the phone interview people at midwestern SLAC. They were supposedly going to decide on the three candidates for campus visits on Friday, so I'm guessing I didn't make the cut. Hmph. I've noticed I'm fine in phone interviews with one person, but I'm just not so good at the ones with people being very quiet on the other end. There's a different dynamic. One person will give cues, and it's a conversation. Speakerphone interviews? Not so much.

And tomorrow I fly out for the next SLAC interview. Still madly prepping that one. Go figure it would be the week I finish marking and handing back midterms -- i.e., the week after the week from "no time at all" hell. Oh well. I've got a day and a half. Help!

I do like the look of other SLAC. They have been really nice, and the job is a really odd combination of fields that I can actually claim. Kind of nervous about the job talk, but otherwise, I'm probably OK. Except, of course, that I have no pictures. Bugger. I may have to get up way early to make transparencies tomorrow, because I have to go to the airport directly after class. Or, it'll just be low tech. The thing is, I really don't use a lot of images when I teach. It's probably one of my true weaknesses. I'm image-deficient. I just don't know how to pick them or use them properly. Oh hell. I'm screwed, aren't I?

Oh well ... maybe I'll get an interview for my present job in its TT incarnation.

Saturday, February 11, 2006

Help from the Blogosphere

Help from the Blogosphere


I guess I should preface this by saying that I don't know Moreena, not even really in the blog sense. I don't read a lot of parenting blogs, but I know there's overlap here. And since some of the people who have made my life better over the past couple of years do know her, and they care about her a lot, that's reason enough for me to post about her. The short story -- academic family with child whose medical bills are ginormous. Insurance nightmares. It could happen to any of us. Please go to Scrivener for a good summary of what's happening, and what you can do to help. If you are looking for the names of other people involved, Phantom Scribbler and Peripatetic Polar Bear are helping to round up support. There are lots of others involved, but I think this is one of those 'small convergence of different circles' things. Anyway, if I keep rabbiting on, you'll not go check things out. So I'll stop. Especially before I get on my single-payer, national health insurance rant. No pressure. But really, this could be any of us.

Saturday Personality Tests!

Saturday Personality Tests



First, you can contribute to my Johari window, if you'd like, and even get your own. The server gets kind of overloaded, though, so it may take a few tries.

Then, as nicked from Pilgrim/Heretic:

Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||||||||||||||| 63%
Stability |||||||||||||| 53%
Orderliness |||||||||||| 43%
Accommodation |||||||||||||||| 63%
Interdependence |||||||||||||| 56%
Intellectual |||||||||||||||| 63%
Mystical |||||||||| 36%
Artistic |||||||||| 36%
Religious |||||||||||| 50%
Hedonism |||||||||||||||| 63%
Materialism |||||||||| 36%
Narcissism |||||||||||| 50%
Adventurousness |||| 16%
Work ethic |||||||||||||||| 70%
Self absorbed |||||||||||| 43%
Conflict seeking |||||||||| 36%
Need to dominate |||||||||||| 43%

Romantic |||||||||||||| 56%
Avoidant |||||| 30%
Anti-authority |||||||||||| 43%
Wealth || 10%
Dependency |||||||||||||||| 63%
Change averse |||||||||||||||| 63%
Cautiousness |||||||||||||||| 70%
Individuality || 10%
Sexuality |||||||||||||||| 70%
Peter pan complex |||||||||||||| 56%
Physical security |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Physical Fitness |||||| 30%
Histrionic |||||||||||| 43%
Paranoia |||||| 30%
Vanity |||||| 23%
Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||| 56%
Female cliche |||||||||||| 50%
Take Free Advanced Global Personality Test
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Stability results were medium which suggests you are moderately relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic.
Orderliness results were moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment.
Extraversion results were moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity.



trait snapshot:

expressive, open, self revealing, loves large parties, loud, social, outgoing, does not like social isolation, assertive, social chameleon, positive, always busy, likes to fit in, likes to stand out, enjoys leadership, brutally honest, trusting, optimistic, desires attention, dominant, aggressive, attachment prone, wants to be understood, realistic

in other news, Professor Kinsey is blogging again. See what a difference tenure and a different field can make to the blogging process!

Thursday, February 09, 2006

Blogfriend Meme-ry

Blogfriend Meme-ry


If there is someone on your blogroll who makes your world a better place just because that person exists and who you would not have met (in real life or not) without the internet, then post this same sentence on your blog.

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

good news, bad news

Good News, Bad News



The good news: We were discussing the Res Gestae in my freshman survey today. Initial skepticism ("how much of this is true, ADM?" "Well ... most of it is in fact 'true' ... but let's talk about that a bit") followed by ... "Hey, what's this tribunicia potestas?" "It's the powers of the tribune"

So a student asks what that means, and someone says, "wait ... he's not a pleb, is he?"

They really seemed to get into picking apart all of these things that look like good traditional Roman values, but just knock the mos maiorum all to hell and gone. A couple of them were grinning like crazy people at the sheet political brilliance of the man ...

Sorry -- that was kinda geeky, but I like it when the students start to say, "hey ... wait a minute!"

The bad news --

I was supposed to give back exams tonight, but the faculty meeting went far longer than I thought it would. Argh.

Tuesday, February 07, 2006

Every Bloody Time

Every Bloody Time



The interview is very soon. I have just been hit with the signs of migraine onset. Every bloody major interview in the last three years ...

update: Yay, meds! and no, I have absolutely no idea of how that went. It was either a complete wash or brilliant, but I don't know which. Didn't get any verbal or auditory cues. And don't know if they will think I'm a good fit for a school with a religious affiliation. I don't know that I would be at most schools, but this one I think would be a good fit. Their ideas of citizenship and participation in society are very much like my own, at least. I really liked the department chair. They did ask why they'd want to hire me -- I said that I was very good at what I do, and I was a good colleague. And that I tended to worry about being good enough to make sure I stayed that way.

Oh well -- we'll know by the end of the week if I got the brass ring of the campus interview or crashed and burned. I'm hoping for the brass ring. From what I could tell, I'd like a second date.

Crossing Fingers

Crossing Fingers


Phone interview directly after teaching. Wish me luck, please!

Just think -- if I get a job, I can go back to blogging about history and teaching!

Monday, February 06, 2006

Pet Peeve

Pet Peeve


In my world "evidence" and "reference" are still nouns. Please smack me if you hear/see me use them as verbs. Thank you.

Will it ever end??

Will it ever end??



OK -- this weekend I did a very small amount of marking, had friends over for dinner and games on Friday, watched the Stuporbowl at X's Stuporbowl party, and completed job applications 26-31 (except for copies of evals I need to make tomorrow). Thirty-one job applications. I am soooo tired. Please, let me get a job so I can go back to focusing on doing the important parts of my job well! (Not that I don't, but damn, it's hard when you're on the market)

First big interview this week, on the Cranky Professor's birthday. Then another big one next week. I hope by that time I'll know if I've got an interview for my present postion (TT version), but it might be another week after that. Saw another three or four jobs advertised this week, but I have to mark 75 exams by Wednesday -- Friday at the latest. Sometimes the students just have to come first ...

Sunday, February 05, 2006

Carnivalesque at Pilgrim's

Carnivalesque -- the Early Modern Kind



The newest edition of Carnivalesque is up at Pilgrim/Heretic!! It looks fantastic. Come for the carnival, stay for the virtual bar!

Saturday, February 04, 2006

Bad Bloggatrix

History Carnival XXIV


History Carnival XXIV is up at The Elfin Ethicist. It's very interesting, and chock full of historical goodness.



Bad Bloggatrix



I know I've been a bad blogger lately. I've been trying to juggle writing more job applications, including the one for the position I'm in this year, which is going TT. It's due next week. Frankly, after putting in 27 applications and getting 3 interviews (one of which seems to have gone nowhere), I'm just really burnt. And I'm also so petrified I won't be employed next year that I'm having a hard time connecting. Funny -- just as I'm starting to be a productive academic again (in a small way), just as I'm starting to kind of get my life back together, and I'm looking at a big black hole of maybe having to survive on adjunct pay -- if I'm lucky! It's not irony, in the classic sense. I don't think its punishment for hubris, either, but who knows? The gods like to screw with people. Is there a proper name for this?

I gave a midterm last week. Most people showed up. Some didn't, which I find worrisome. A couple of the people who didn't show dropped, but most didn't. Then, in my Early Modern section of the survey, only 6 people out of 25 showed the next day. and only 10 the day after (normal attendance is 14-18). My early survey is always close to full attendance -- maybe 3 people absent on a given day. My night class is almost always complete. Moreover, several of the people who showed up to take the in-class part of the test (60%) didn't do the take-home. Not that they didn't know about it -- they just didn't do it. I give out the exam a week ahead of time. They have a week to write a 750-1000 word essay and study 4 other essay questions, from which I will pick the in-class essay. And they just didn't do it. I know that I've talked about How to do College before, but I sometimes forget that my students really aren't us. I understand how to teach the things to catch them up -- how to write, how to approach college work, etc. The problem is, I can't seem to get them to believe me that I don't expect them to have all the answers right now -- but if they do enough work to get down a fair chunk of the information, enough that they can ask the questions, I can help them with the answers. But to add to a recent post on the subject, "I am not here to do your work for you."

Still, how do I get them to believe me that, if they do the work, that's more than half the battle, that, even if they don't get it at the time, they have to do the initial reading, or prep or whatever, in order for me to do my job well -- something that will give us all pleasure and which will result in their work bearing fruit?

Oh well, I have a review to finish polishing and send off, 75 exams to mark, a syllabus to revise to make up for the time I'll be at my campus interview, two interviews to prep for, and a paper to write. Off to work.

Oh -- BTW, I have to teach a class at the SLAC I am visiting. The class is Europe, and Early Modern (the part generally referred two by two three-letter abbreviations). I don't have to teach this subject -- I can do something in my own field. But I'm fairly sure one of the reasons I got the interview is that I can do all of Europe, plus have the desired grad field and some teaching experience in Johnathan Dresner's field. So I am going to talk about a particular religious order founded by a Spaniard, that reports via a military-like hierarchy to the Pope, and their work in Johnathan Dresner's part of the world. If anyone has references I could use or documents/images I might want to include, I'd love to hear from you. ANd sorry to be so cryptic -- I just would like to not be too google-able! Thanks!

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

More stuff for the classicists

More stuff for the classicists


OK, so I'm re-reading Appian on the Gracchi for tomorrow's class. BTW, can I tell you how absolutely thrilled I was yesterday when, in my freshman-level class, I finished talking about the Punic Wars with a summary of results, one of which was of course the increase of slave labor and the growth of latifundia in a problematic way, and a student in the back of the room held up Appian and said, "Is that what's going on here in this document?" But I digress, as usual.
So, internets, here is my question (and I would look some of this stuff up in the appropriate prosopographia, but I don't teach at a place that has such things): is/how is the tribune Marcus Octavius ousted by Ti. Sempronius Gracchus related to the C. Octavius later adopted by C. Iulius Caesar? Also (and this is a probably dumb question to which I am embarrassed I don't already know the answer) is Scipio Aemilianus' wife, Sempronia, Cornelia's daughter and sister to the Gracchi? And really -- I think I did use to know this stuff, but my synapses aren't firing that well these days.* Thanks in advance!

Oh -- and for the English language people: Does English have an actual subjunctive, or just a conditional?


*er ... OTOH, I played pub trivia the other night for the first time and weeks, and came up with Fifty-Cent's real name (actually the other way round -- but Fitty-Cent?) and argued my teammates out of saying that profiteroles were made of puff pastry, because I was sure it was paté choux. Go figure. I came out with more money than I walked in with, and that's what counts!

Saturday, January 28, 2006

A question for the Classicists

A question for the Classicists


I was looking at a lecture for a friend earlier today, and there was a point at which he referred to Tacitus. Actually, he didn't; the reference was implied, but clear to anyone who's taught the Germania. Whatever. It made me think, and via a very circuitous route, about Tacitus' Latin, and how I've always found him rather difficult to read. Sallust (at least the stuff on Catiline, which is the bulk of my experience), however, I've always found pretty straightforward. But although they are both more or less writing exemplary moral stuff, Sallust has always seemed to be aimed more at a 'popular' audience, at least to me. I have no idea if this is true, by the way. But if it is, could this be part of the difference (development of the language and change of style over time notwithstanding)? Is Sallust easier because he is writing for a broader audience? Is Tacitus stuffy and difficult because he is writing for a senatorial aristocracy that he thinks should be able to read Latin at a much higher and stylistically difficult level? Or am I just all wrong on this -- something I'm all too willing to believe since I'm not a real Classicist, despite a fairly good grounding?

And some fun



Found in lots of places ...

Friday, January 27, 2006

Phew!

Phew!


Well, I was observed twice this week, once by my department chair, and once by my division chair, a person of immense power and influence on campus. I admit that I did nothing extra to prep my classes -- except that I did review my notes a bit more carefully beforehand. The first observation was good -- entirely document discussion. Today's was a bit weird, because we were finishing some documents on one period, but finished with them earlier than I would have liked, so I moved us on to the next topic via lecture. So the chair saw me in both discussion and lecture mode. Have I mentioned that I am terrified of screwing up in front of this person, because the chair really does have the power to give me the job or deny it? For those of you Ancient/Medieval folks, think major patron in the Roman Republican sense. But I think it went reasonably well, because when I got back to my office, I passed the chair in the hall and heard this:
"Very nice, ADM, very nice."

I will now commence with the breathing.

Update: No longer breathing. Looked at the Kzoo program. Senior Colleague's name is missing from our roundtable. Scarier ... a bona fide person with name recognition is the presider at my paper panel. I was not aware of this. Yeep! And finally, the scary scholar who works on very similar things to me is unfortunately not presenting across from me. So ... maybe I should see this as incentive to write a kick-ass paper rather than panicking about my impending academic embarrassing crucifixion of doom?

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

Interview!!!

Made a shortlist of three and a campus interview at a SLAC in a part of the country I really like!

Getting the hang of things

Getting the hang of things


OK. I've found a bunch of new jobs to apply to in the next two weeks. I will be applying. But I'm starting to feel a bit more hopeful. Somehow, since last summer, I've managed to:
  • end a marriage amicably
  • find a one-year job, for which I turned down a different one-year job and adjunct classes at two colleges for the fall
  • turn in one complete and very overdue book review now in press
  • write a paper abstract
  • teach a full load (15 class hours per week), including one brand-new prep very much not in my field
  • move twice
  • edit/proof a chapter of a friend's diss
  • apply for 25 jobs so far
  • interview for one job
  • schedule an interview for a second job
  • finish a draft of a second review that I've posted to my workblog for my colleagues to laugh at and critique so I can send it to my editor by this weekend
  • make time to edit a paper for a colleague this weekend


Now ... I haven't been to the gym since this summer, or been for a run since September. And I have to get the draft of the paper done by early April. But I think I might be getting the hang of this academic stuff. Maybe. When I get all this stuff done and if I don't fall on my face at Kazoo, do I have your permission to give a very small lion-cub-like rowr?

Saturday, January 21, 2006

Carnival of the Feminists 7

Carnival of the Feminists 7



Wow! If you are looking for a virtuous time-suck, go over to Carnival of the Feminists 7 at Feministe. There's plenty to provoke thought there. It's one for me to bookmark, I'm afraid, but for those of you who are ahead of your game, enjoy!

Me? I'm going to turn into Another Domestic Medievalist and clean up my house, which is in need of tidying, vacuuming, etc. Then back to writing, since I hammered out 500 or so words yesterday, I might as well keep it up.

Thursday, January 19, 2006

When a Historian hits the Big Time

When a Historian hits the Big Time


I'm guessing this is a sign -- Barnes and Noble just sent me an e-mail asking if I wanted to pre-order Natalie Zemon Davis' new book. Since the last one of these e-mails I got was for a Terry Pratchett book, this no doubt Says Something.

In other news, still waiting to hear if I made the cut on numerous jobs, waiting for a date to be set for an interview where I have made the short list, and gearing up for the crop of late-season jobs, including the TT version of the one I have now. The more I think about it, the more I know I want to be offered it. I really like my students here, and my colleagues and the admin are super-supportive. Kinda wish it were in a different location, but shoot. Plus, not getting the job here would make me feel very bad. Even if I were to get another offer.

But in the meantime, I've got writing to do. Not to mention some reading. OK, maybe not NZ Davis-style writing, but writing, nonetheless. Oh -- and I have a super-sikrit plan for something publishable! Long-term, but good, I think.


Carnivalesque -- the Early Modern version


To be held on or about Feb 4 at Pilgrim/Heretic. Send her your nominations in any field, as long as it fits the Early Modern description!

Sunday, January 15, 2006

Teaching Carnival V

Teaching Carnival V


Teaching Carnival V is up at Ancarett's Abode. It's got some fantastic stuff -- go and read!

Sunday Memeage

Sunday Memeage



Four Jobs You’ve Had

  1. Waitress
  2. Assistant Manager at a Cinema
  3. Customer Service and Training Manager for a dotcom
  4. EFL teacher in Germany


Four Movies You Could Watch Over and Over
  1. Jean de Florette
  2. The Great Escape
  3. The Princess Bride
  4. Singing in the Rain


Four Places You’ve Lived

  1. Carpinteria, CA
  2. On a boat (a Cal 34, to be exact)
  3. A high-rise dormitory in Germany
  4. DeKalb County, Georgia


Four TV Shows You Love to Watch

  1. anything by Joss Whedon
  2. Mystery!
  3. Scrubs
  4. Deadwood


Four Places You’ve Been on Vacation

  1. King's Canyon, CA
  2. Aviemore, Scotland
  3. London
  4. Port Townsend, WA


Four Blogs You Visit Daily
(yeah, right! -- as if I could name only 4 ...)
  1. Pilgrim/Heretic
  2. Early Modern Notes
  3. New Kid on the Hallway
  4. Bitch, PhD


Four of Your Favorite Foods
  1. Caribbean-style curried goat
  2. dim sum (although no feet, please)
  3. Tom kha gai
  4. pasta


Four Places You’d Rather Be

  1. southern Germany
  2. anywhere in Britain (the island)
  3. the Beach
  4. A really nice pub/coffeeshop with wifi and free beverages


Four Albums You Can’t Live Without (no such thing -- but I've been playing these a lot lately)

  1. Vaughan Williams, Orchestral Works (Decca)
  2. The Beautiful South, Miaow
  3. Linda Thompson, Fashionably Late
  4. Death Cab For Cutie, Plans



Four Vehicles You’ve Owned

  1. 1971 Toyota Corona
  2. 1972 Dodge Dart Swinger
  3. 1972 VW Bug
  4. 1994 Ford Escort



Four Taggees
(I think I'm the last person in the world to do this, but if not, I tag jo(e) and New Kid)

Thursday, January 12, 2006

De-lurking

De-Lurking






OK -- so I know you are out there ... You don't have to comment, but in honor of the now almost over week of de-lurking, please feel free!

Teaching Carnival Soon!



The next Teaching Carnival will be appearing on or about the 15th of this month at Ancarett's Abode. Please let her know of any submissions at ancarett AT gmail DOT com.

Monday, January 09, 2006

Back in the Groove

Back in the Groove


Well, still exhausted, but classes went pretty well today. I have decided there are two things I really like about night classes: the students usually want to be there, and I have more time to teach. I don't know what it is, but I have a very hard time teaching a daily schedule. 50 minutes isn't enough for me to get into my groove and really set up the big picture, teach the primary sources, and pull back out to the big picture again. It's not that the daily classes are bad classes, just that I never feel they are as coherent.

In some ways, I was very disappointed by the AHA this year. I went to a couple of good panels, and heard a couple of good papers. I missed the Patrick Geary panel, because I just blanked on when it was and ended up at something else. The panel on assessment was really disappointing, I thought. Too many people whinging and not enough practical stuff. Still, it reminded me I really want to read this book by Sam Wineburg.

In the non-panel parts of AHA, I think the interview went pretty well, although it turned out to be more a screening interview, as half the search committee were sick and not there. I heard some scuttlebutt about the department later on, but not enough to make me worry. So I hope I make the next round. It really sounds like the kind of place that I'd fit -- same kinds of students I now teach, much like Dr. Crazy's students, really, but with the ability to teach upper division. ANd they have a bear of a teaching load, so their expectations of scholarly activity seem reasonable. I did like the people who did the interviewing, too, so that's good.

Most of all, I enjoyed the meet-ups. I saw people I've known for a very long time, and people I'd never met before. I can't imagine having had a better time with P/H -- it was like we'd known each other for years -- sometimes rooming with even good friends can be weird, but there was something really comfortable and natural about it, I thought. Maybe because we both seem to be pretty low maintenance about some things? I spent the better part of Sunday with Sharon Howard, who is just a lovely woman. Physically nothing like I expected, but otherwise very much what I thought we should be like. I ended up taking her back to the Belgian Ale pub, called Eulogy, for lunch. There I had a Philly cheese steak sandwich, with which I was not all that impressed. Then a very long flight back home. I arrived at about 10 last night, and was on campus at 8:00 this morning. My classes still have students, so I'm pretty happy. They seem engaged, which makes me happier. And I have to prep for tomorrow -- Ancient Near East stuff, so very disparate and a bit rushed (get me to the Greeks), and then Peasant Revolts in the 14th c. And then on to write a book review that's just barely a week late. I realised this evening that the best part of going to conferences is that I feel energised when I come back. I've talked to colleagues who have validated me -- other people seem to think I know my job, and it's nice to be reminded. It's a reality check -- P/H said she could see me being a bit intimidating (which I so don't get, but apparently some folks find me a person with a strong personality) -- so must make sure students aren't intimidated too much! OR search committees?

It's good to be back. Please let me not have to be doing all this again next year. I know what I'm good at, and trying to make sure I get paid for doing it isn't particularly helping me concentrate on those things!


A Small Announcement


Here's where I pass on the info that Tiruncula has gone private. No scary reasons, just discretion being the better part of valour. If you are one of her regular readers, you can ask for her password. I can pass on her e-mail to ask her, if you need it.

Sunday, January 08, 2006

AHA Day the Last

AHA Day the Last


I do not remember being this tired from conferencing before. Ugh. I may have to take my personal day at the beginning of Kalamazoo (or the end) just to sleep. Mmmmmmmm. Sleep. And I would so like to cause pain to the stupid grad students who roamed the halls last night (at 2-3 a.m.) being quite loud. more later.

Friday, January 06, 2006

AHA Day 1

AHA Days 1 & 2


Arrived safely in Philly and met up with Pilgrim/Heretic. She is much as I expected, but younger. Excellent roommate, though! And she's totally cool. I thin we decided we're just going to stay in Philly. We went to a pub that specializes in Belgian ales and had dinner -- frites, mussels, and beer. Yum!

Friday was good -- I went to the only paper that deals with anything like my area -- interesting person from Notre Dame -- A grad student, I think. And I ran my idea for a book project by P/H, who liked it. Mad dash to print expensively at Kinko's, a business lunch with other people from a history organization specializing in reviews and discussion lists, and then a mad dash to the interview. I think it went well. It turned out to be a screening interview, as half of the search committee came down with some awful illness. I really liked the people. I think the job would be a great fit -- everything I like about teaching CC, in terms of student demographic and focus on teaching and collegiality (and also a heavy teaching load), but also the things I miss -- teaching upper division courses and having expectations of writing. I really hope I made it to the next stage.

Then back to the hotel, where P/H and I met up with 1B*. Soooo much fun. great dinner in a Cuban restaurant, and lots and lots of laughing. If we go with B*'s idea of blogger trading cards, I collected a bunch this weekend. In addition to P/H and B*, I met Timothy Burke, who was ill and still one of the most friggin' brilliant and articulate speakers I've met, Nathanael Robinson, David Beito, Manan Ahmed, and Juan Cole, who was so very cool. I always thought he'd be all Mr. Arrogant, because he's kinda famous, but he was just the most pleasant person. I also met Sharon Howard, who's meeting up with me again in a few minutes. I am feeling very privileged.

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

New Term

New Term


New term, new students, lots of fun. The first class was really good, I think -- lots of energy for an early class. The next class much lower energy, but there were smiles. I'm hoping that's a good sign. The best thing is that no one seemed too upset that we're missing a class this week for AHA. Kind of. Yours truly will be checking in from afar, prodding them in the right general direction on Blackboard from her hotel room. Someday, I would like to be at a conference that doesn't happen when I'm supposed to be teaching or marking. I've marked final exams through two Late Antiquity conferences, and maintained classes from AHA three times now ...

Aargh.

On the up side, my Blackboard classes are in really good shape!

Oh -- and if anyone knows what novel a story like this figures into (although with tragic results -- the bride is drowned by the groom as they try to consummate the marriage), I'd love to know. I know I've read it.

Monday, January 02, 2006

Have You Ever Noticed

Have you ever noticed ...


... that it's the "nicer" hotels that charge $10 a day for internet access. Please let my ethernet card be working, because I really don't want to pay for wireless which isn't available in the rooms and is a dollar more!

I am so not ready for this conference. I must prepare for this interview. But now, I have to make sure the Blackboard sites for my classes are ready ...

Saturday, December 31, 2005

Blogger Breakfast

Blogger Breakfast


Ok -- does anybody know a good place to eat in Philly at 7:30 in the morning? I've made backup plans -- reserved for 10 somewhere (you'll have to check in with me or Ralph Luker or Rebecca for details), but it would be nice to find a place that also lets us see something of Philly. So far, I think we've got around 6 people who say they're coming -- I need to know soon if the reservation needs bumping up!

Cheers, and Happy New Year!

Friday, December 30, 2005

All I wanted for Christmas

All I wanted for Christmas ...


... is a longer break! Can I just say that it is insane to have just barely two weeks between terms? And just over a week in March. When do I get to breathe? When, more importantly, do I get to research and write? OK -- so I'm teaching at a junior college. All I teach is surveys, 200-levels if I'm lucky. So why would I put myself through this? Why would anyone? Few, if any, of my colleagues do more than read. If they go to conferences, they're on assessment (which I have to admit, I kinda love when done well) and things pedagogical. Yes, folks, this is ADM's semi-annual whinge about the forced and false dichotomy between teaching and research.

This break, I needed to get a whole bunch of stuff done. Ok -- so some personal stuff happened that was more than a little distracting. My parents are divorcing (a shocker) and my grandfather died (not so much, but still ...). But with just over two weeks to put together new syllabi to reflect my How to do college manifesto, prep for an interview at the big conference (please, I need a job!), read a book and review it, get through a three volume set of sources in Latin with handy editorial comments in German, etc., and try to work on the other big conference stuff,I don't feel nearly ready. OK, well, the syllabi are mostly done. The book to be reviewed is mostly done and I may actually have the review drafted this weekend, which means it will almost be on time. I have not prepped for the interview -- in fact, I need to find my old evals to bring -- Argh! and I need to make nice CV copies for the meat market, just in case.

I know that, if I were hired tenure-track, even with a heavy teaching load like the one I have now, things would get easier. I'd have the preps down a bit more, because I wouldn't be changing texts or term lengths every bloody year. I'm really lucky where I am, because there is a lot of support for people who want to write. That's not the norm in many CCs. But sometimes I get discouraged, because the reactions among my colleagues are pretty much of two kinds -- people who think it's neat, and wish they had time to do more, but have families or have just got out of the habit, and people who look at me like I've grown horns. I'm deathly afraid that my wanting to keep up, and write at the almost the same rate that I would at a small 4-year with a heavy teaching load (which is not small potatoes, but not what one needs for tenure at a research uni or small college with delusions of grandeur) is going to make my colleagues think I shouldn't teach with them. The truth is, if all I teach are the same three courses nine times a year, I will burn out. My teaching will become stale. I will not stop caring, but I will do what I see many of my colleagues doing -- recycling pre-packaged lectures and tests, giving out scripts for the students to take film notes ... If I do not push myself, if I don't make sure I have a reason to push myself, I might become a Bad Teacher. And no, I really don't see myself writing scripts or giving worksheets. I teach college, after all. That would be like giving scan-tron exams. Anathema, I say! I must do both, or I will not do well at either!

But seriously, I do worry about maintaining a balance for myself, and keeping up the right image. My chair knows I have two interviews so far, one at a 4-year, one at a larger school. I think I could do really well at either place, and I think I have a lot to offer them. I also think I have a lot to offer at my present school, and there are lots of reasons I'd be happy if they offered me a job. I just worry about how to convince the 4-years that I'm scholarly enough, while making sure that my current colleagues don't see me as someone looking for a stop-gap. If I keep getting the kind of support I've had so far, it's a really good gig and I'd be happy taking it. But there are trade-offs. There always are. I just hope they can be minimized. And it would be a hell of a lot easier to minimize them if we had longer breaks!

Right -- back to work. Syllabi must be finished by tomorrow. Then I can go to the library!

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

Well, Shoot.

Well, Shoot


Christmas was a mixed bag -- mostly good, and I felt very loved, having been taken in by a friend and her family. A little bad -- announcements of a divorce in the family and an expected death which was mostly a blessing. But really, mostly good.

The return home? Not so good. I have in my e-mail two student requests for re-evaluation of grades. These are the kind of requests that kill me. I believe in the mission of community colleges to provide a truly college-level education to those for whom it might otherwise be impossible. I also really believe in federal and state financial aid packages. I am happy for every bit of tax money that goes to them. So here's the problem, oh internets -- an ethical one for which I'd appreciate your opinion. So you know, I cannot really see doing anything for these students.

The problem, in a nutshell, is that, if I don't raise these students' grades -- and by a tenth of a percentage point in each case, I think, they will lose their financial aid for the next term -- I'm not sure how this works -- it seems to me that the one grade I give must fit into an average? I should ask Financial aid and counseling, I suppose.

But -- Student One was almost always late. S/he almost never took notes in class and never (or not that I could tell) prepared for discussion. Never turned in discussion notes when I checked them. All the written assignments were pretty much a C- average. Class participation was 30% of the grade -- s/he was there almost every day, but as I said, no discussion, always late. But the student really does want to do well, and has signed up for another of my classes next term. Other faculty know this student, and there is a general feeling s/he just needs more help in how to do college.

Student Two was really good, all through class. Incredibly bright, prepared (or faked well) all of class discussion, had a grade in the low 90s. Except. The paper was plagiarised. Student asked about the zero on the paper, and I pointed out that it had something to do with uncited passages taken verbatim from a couple of web sites. Student Two did not protest my assessment or claim innocence. What s/he did do was send a note saying that we both knew the grade was not indicative of the work the student was capable of, whatever the reason for that final grade. Could I please raise the grade by that tenth of a point?

Well, shoot. It seems to me that these two students must not have done all that well in their other classes if the grades they earned from me are enough to tip the balance. And one was dishonest. I don't want to see these people lose their aid, but you know, it's never really bothered me before. And if I understand correctly the GPA thing (and since I used to worry about my own, I pretty much think I get the whole GPA thing), Student Two really must have done badly in another class (perhaps also dishonesty??) to be teetering on the edge of losing his/her funding.

Part of me wants to help -- especially Student One. But part of me also says that I didn't give them these grades; they really did earn them. And one of the lessons of college is that you have to do the work. I wonder if I'd feel better about this kind of thing if I had tenure. It seems to me that, in this case, figuring grades mathematically and sticking to those figures means that I cannot allow myself to make decisions based on my own sentiments or wonder about whether either of these students is deserving. Oh internets, shall I take refuge in the rules??

Update: Student One is safe, if s/he brings his/her grades up this term. I will be working with him/her on "how to do college." Student Two's GPA disaster has little to do with what s/he earned in my course. I'm sticking to my guns and feeling stupid for almost having fallen for the sob story. Thanks to everyone who helped out with an opinion. It's nice to have a reality check sometimes.

Saturday, December 24, 2005

Happy Christmas, Happy Chanukah

Happy Christmas, Happy Chanukah


Well, folks, providing the upset stomach I woke up with goes away, I'm off to a friends' family's place for Christmas. Hope you all have a nice one!

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

AHA Blogger Meet-up

AHA Blogger Meet-up


So far, the best time for many of us looks to be breakfast on Saturday. Does anyone know the area well enough to suggest a place? Also, if you are interested in coming, please comment or e-mail so that we can get reservations. I'm still trying to put together my own plans -- one invite for Saturday night and lunch on Friday are booked ... I'll probably be doing a scrounge through appropriate receptions, as well. Last year in Seattle, there was an awful lot of really good food that was up for grabs ;-) Hey -- I'm on a budget!

So -- the ungodly hour of 7:30 on Saturday, so that people going to the blogging talk can get there.

Monday, December 19, 2005

Interesting and good news

Interesting and Good News



So, the good news is I've been chosen to interview for a second position. This one a state U. I'm very excited about it. It is a teaching-heavy position, but one where I think there will be enough pressure to push myself to really excel. But now I feel constrained. So much for details. There would be more, but ...

Some of you may have noticed that I've installed sitemeter. On the one hand, it's really neat to see that I have visitors from all over the world. On the other, I'm not exactly thrilled that some of my newer visitors are coming via the Chronicle of Higher Education jobs website. Yep -- the CHE has a list of academic blogs. This is the same place that gave Ivan Tribble a whole lot of space to tell us how blogging was going to keep us from getting jobs. I don't think that's really irony, except in the Alannis way, but it's interesting in a right hand-left hand way. And now, I can also see that there are people who read my blog who log on from big universities and small. People whose identities I can guess because they are at little colleges with distinctive names I recognize from some of the same listservs that I subscribe to. I feel distinctly uncomfortable.



So if you think you know who I am, I'm going to ask you a favor. Just keep it to yourself, unless you are very positive that 'outing' me will help me to get a job. I'm happy to say I'm not embarrassed by anything I've written on my blog. I think I've written some good things that reflect my views on history and on teaching, and through my blog, I've made connections that have allowed me the chance to present, got me a position doing something that will count as service to the profession and name-recognition for wherever I'm employed, and generally kept my head in the game. I've gained colleagues in ways contingent faculty usually can't, and I'm very lucky. I hope the blog makes me look like someone you'd like as a colleague. But forgive me if I'm still a little scared.



Oh -- and if you are the person who got here by googling "Gandhi + contribution + world + history"? It sounds like you're a student. Try the library. Look up Gandhi in the catalog. Go to the bibliography in a book on Gandhi and see what other books you can find that address your question. For free, you might also search for Gandhi's impact, or civil diobedience or somesuch thing. But pretty much, you might want to start at the library and the databases there.

Sunday, December 18, 2005

Two questions

Two questions



Question the first: Are there already plans for a blogger meet-up at AHA? Same rules as last year, I'm thinking -- pseudonymous types who don't wish to be outed get their privacy respected. Rebecca suggested breakfast before the Cliopatria awards. That could work, although it means being much more organized about packing. Please e-mail or put comments below if you're interested.


Question the second: There's been some roundabout talk here and there for the past year or so on either having a medieval blog or a work group blog. I honestly don't have time for the former, unless it's also the latter, but I don't know that everybody wants their works-in-progress up to review. I also want this to be a group of people who know each other, but that can be expanded on the agreement of the group. So I'm sorry if it sounds like a private club, but I think it's the only way to protect the pseudo/anonymity of the members. Again, post below or e-mail and I will set it up and send details. It will be at a site that can be locked down from public viewing.

Friday, December 16, 2005

Teaching Carnival IV

Teaching Carnival IV


... was up at New Kid's, but typepad seems to have gone wonky. You can access it here, via bloglines.

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

How to do College

How to do College



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I wanted to jump into this conversation between Manorama, Dr. Crazy, et al. last month, but I was busy and I really wanted to finish my first term at new college before I put in my oar. One of the things I've noticed this term, one of the things I like best about new college, is the student population. It's pretty diverse in terms of race, age and background. I have a lot of very young students who dual-enrolled as high-school seniors after having been home-schooled for 10 years or so. I have other dual-enrolled students, working students, single mothers, ex-military, immigrants, refugees, returning students -- and even some traditional students. The college is in a 'burb of regional Big City. Some of my students have never been there, although it's only 15 miles away and many of them have come from farming communities 60 or 70 miles away to enroll at new college. At least half of them come from the same sort of income background that I do, far fewer from families like mine where expectations were decidedly oriented on college education in preparation for a decent income and job security.*


It struck me when reading the series of posts that for many of us, we really are teaching "us" in some fundamental ways, but not in others. As I've learned more and more about my blogging colleagues, I've learned that a lot of us come from non-traditional backgrounds. I've also seen that we sometimes lose touch with those backgrounds as we move farther into our academic lives. That's to be expected. It's a different world and we have changed to fit it. In turn, academe has changed us and our expectations. I don't mean this in a bad way, but it is true that graduate education, even when it provides us with excellent training as teachers, happens at research institutions. The majority of the students we teach as graduate students are those who were good enough to get in the door. The door is not the same one my students come through. The law mandates that our door remain open to all. But even in those other institutions -- Big State, Small Private, Ivy, whatever -- we also are not teaching "us." We professor-types were the ones who were engaged, interested, and focused on doing well. Most of our students are not planning on being academics (generally a good idea, in terms of the job market).

Because our students aren't "us" we cannot expect them to behave as we did. Because
my students have needs I never had (and some I did), I have to change the way I each in order to do my job, which I see as teaching History at the same level and with the same content and standards as when I teach at a posh private university. My students, most of whom do want to transfer to a U., need to be able to hack it when they get there.

The one thing this term has taught me, more than any other, is that, in order to do my job well, I have to teach something more than History. I have to teach "college." Hell, that's not true. I have to teach "school." I'm more sure of this today that I was yesterday. I got my evaluations. One comment I particularly loved. The student claimed that I was rare because I treated the class as college students and expected them to behave that way. The rest? Pretty typical. Complaints about the work load, praise for my being there and taking as much time as they needed to help them. Just doing my job, ma'am.

So how do we teach college? Well, here's what I've learned this term and am planning for next.

  1. The Syllabus: Not only do I need to go over the syllabus, but I need to explain its purpose. Due dates, grading policy, etc., are all there. We'll also be going over all of the assessment materials I place on Blackboard -- especially those I use for essay assignments.

  2. Reading Assignments: I need to explain the assignments and that students should take notes and re-read after we cover things in class to reinforce what we've done. Moreover, I need to explain more about the primary source readings. I have a very punitive policy on prepping readings, but low expectations of what the prep should be. Students are given a series of basic questions that they should try to answer before class -- kind of document, date, author, audience, three examples of evidence from the doc. I will occasionally ask people who have not done the prep to leave and come back prepared the next class. It is harsh and intimidating.

    I've always explained that not being prepared makes for a bad class and is disrespectful of me and, more importantly, one's classmates. This year, I've realized that I also need to say, "if the class doesn't do prep work, discussion takes too long, and I cannot spend the time I'd like helping you to tie it all together. I also need to collect these notes and mark them. It's absurd. This is college. They need it.

  3. The Library: I am used to spending one day of the term in the library, where one of my colleagues there introduces the students to the databases, the differences between scholarly and non-scholarly sources, etc. It isn't enough. I need to take them over and show them where the books are. I need to get them to work in small groups to identify how we cite things and how that citation style (Chicago, thanks!) adds to one's reading of the article or book. This has to come out of class time, because we can't coordinate work and kid schedules.

  4. Study/Attendance habits: "It's college! we don't have to come to class!" Well, no. But you won't do well in my class if you don't show up. I have to take the time to remind students to pull out pen and paper and take notes. I have to go through my own notes and add extra connections and reinforcement and circle words I once thought common, e.g., cyclical, or monarch, and make sure I stop and ask, "can anyone explain what I mean by 'monarch'? Good. Rule or government by one person. Yep, usually a king or ...? Queen? What other kinds of rule can
    you think of? Good! You should be writing these things down ...." For those of you who think I'm talking down to my students, I'm not. They don't know these things. They can't read the textbook (one of the complaints about our book was that the hard vocabulary words weren't bolded) or understand my lectures unless I do this. I think I'm going to suggest they set aside a page in their notebooks (which I will not be correcting -- this is not high school) to keep all the new terms and their definitions. The up-side to this, by the way, is that, when I give them terms in Latin, Greek, German, and French, the students are less resistant to having
    to learn them.

  5. Writing: This term, I had to spend three or four class sessions per class picking up bruised egos and helping students understand why they got abysmal grades on the midterm. By the way, the midterm carries a relatively low weight, but an F still looks like an F -- and students leave. This is bad for them and bad for me. Next term, I will be building some of that time into class. And I'll be trying to head off the worst of the problem writing, i.e., the inability to take an essay question and turn it into a defensible thesis paragraph. I will be taking class time to teach them how to take a test. I will give them an assignment, round about week three, that has them turn an essay question into an answer and outline for an essay.

    I'm beating my head against the desk as I say this, because I am trying to cover everything from the Ancient Near East to the Black Death. But it has to be done. If they can't write a sensible essay, they can't get through my class, let alone get a college degree. And I'll be pulling out the new and improved grading matrices I use for essays so that we can look at them while going over their efforts. Otherwise, I have a sneaking suspicion that most of the materials I make available don't get a glance. And I'll be taking more time with the documents and our discussion, making even more explicit the connection between how a Historian finds
    evidence in documents and how that evidence points to a question and/or answers it.

  6. I anticipate no changes in my grading. I do anticipate requiring students who get marks of 70% or lower to discuss them with me in person or via e-mail.

  7. I anticipate no changes in content, although I may divide some reading assignments between groups. I'll also be giving a few more questions out further in advance for some of the longer readings. It's a college-level class. I'm not going to lower the bar. I'm just going to make sure they get to use a springboard and have some padding there to catch them.


Damn. Sounds like a lot of work. More work than it was when I taught at Grad U or Local Private. But here's the thing. Among these students are some of the brightest people I've taught. They have asked really sophisticated questions for college freshmen and sophomores, questions that belie their lack of skills. They are articulate and they want to do well. They work insane hours, and sometimes I have to wake them up. They drag their butts to class after being up all night with sick kids (or sometimes hung over). And sometimes they complain. Well, they complain a lot. Too much reading, too much to learn ... don't I get that their lives are hard?? And, without saying too much of what I think about college funding, etc., I
remind them that they are tax payers and so are their parents, and that being aware of how education is funded is important. I tell them that a college degree is based on standards created when people got to go to college as their only 'job' and the standards haven't changed because they student profile has. I tell them the difference between a U. and a CC is that I'm here to help carry them, if they are willing to work with me. I sometimes tell them about the great market nearby that sells veg at half the price of the supermarkets because they sell the stuff that doesn't fit into the holes in the nice cardboard apple boxes. And I tell them, yep. It's hard. But I did it. How? Jaws drop as I tell them about pouring beer for drunken frat boys and carrying five classes while working 40 hours a week at $4 an hour at a movie theatre. This often floors them, because I think they think 'we' are different. Maybe because we've forgotten that we aren't teaching us??





*Single-parent, civil-service family with three kids. Here's where I mention that I'm the only person in my generation with an advanced degree. One sister has a BS, the other graduated high school, went to work for the government, and now makes about $80k a year and will be able to retire with a nice pension in 10 years. Cousins also did not go to college ...

And by the way, I just wrote almost 2000 words in a sitting. Please remind me of this when I start whingeing about not being able to write the book review I have to finish early next week and the paper I need to get hopping on!

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

Happy News

Happy News


Haven't been around as much lately, but since grades are now turned in, I'll be blogging something in the next day or so that I hope will be included at the next Teaching Carnival at New Kid's.

I'll also be posting my thoughts on the Narnia movie.

In other news, life goes on. This term was one of major adjustments for those of you who are keeping up. I've been really lucky in having a very good friend in Professor Kinsey and her family, who invited me for Thanksgiving and again for Christmas. Dunno about the latter, yet -- turns out that X is spending Christmas with his new gf and her family at their beach house an airplane trip away, so I need to make sure the kid has plans before I make any of my own.

I love the place I'm teaching, and will be applying for the TT job there when it's advertised. The only part that I don't like is daily classes, but they seem willing to experiment with scheduling, so that's good.

Today's big news is that I have been shortlisted for a Small Liberal Arts College in the midwest. Initial interviews to happen after the holidays. Still hoping for an interview at SLAC in the south, and still filling out apps and affirmative action forms for the rest ;-)

Wish me luck!

Saturday, December 10, 2005

On Lewis and Pullman

On Lewis and Pullman


I'm supposed to go see The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe tonight. I'm sure I'll blog about it (hiding the spoilers, natch!) behind a cut.


I've read the Alison Lurie and Polly Toynbee write-ups about the film in The Grauniad, and now there's this, in the Chronicle of Higher Education.


But I'd like it if someone would explain to me why we are supposed to buy into the "either Christian allegory OR rousing fantasy tale for everyone" and "you can like Pullman or Lewis, but not both" dichotomies.


I loved Narnia as a child. I'm looking forward to the film. I would probably still love the books today, although in a different way, because I read more critically. There did come a time when I liked Lewis' space trilogy more. Hell, I really love Charles Williams' novels. That they are allegory neither bothers nor offends me. They are what they are.

Pullman is also allegory, to a certain extent. His Dark Materials (I'm not talking about the Sally Lockhart books, which I think are pretty great, too) is certainly didactic. I think he oversimplifies many things about religion, class, and magic to make his points in a way so unsubtle as to be borderline offensive. And I think they are great books and would give them to any child old enough to handle the scary bits. I have friends who are practising Christians who also like Pullman.

People. We can like both. Really. Just like we can enjoy both kinds of literature: science fiction and fantasy. Or both kinds of history: Ancient and Medieval. Or both kinds of music: country and western (the music of pain)...

*ducks to avoid her early modernist friends' rapid-fire projectiles*

Update: This essay by Meghan O'Rourke at Slate is a better take, I think. I'm bothered by one thing, though. She says:
Some liberals, like the popular children's author Philip Pullman, therefore dismiss him out of hand [...]

What exactly does she mean by 'liberal', I wonder? Is there any way that the adjective really fits?

Thursday, December 08, 2005

Cultural Fusion

Cultural Fusion


Well, despite my telling the class repeatedly that the many historians of Late Antiquity and the Early Middle Ages (or the midevil period, according to some students) consider the present usages of the words 'German,' 'tribe,' 'Barbarian,' and 'migration' to be problematic, the textbook won again. In an attempt to compromise, I say we all consider using the word 'Gerbarian.' What do you think?

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

End of Term Quizzage

End of Term Quizzage







You Have a Phlegmatic Temperament



Mild mannered and laid back, you take life at a slow pace.

You are very consistent - both in emotions and actions.

You tend to absorb setbacks easily. You are cool and collected.



It is difficult to offend you. You can remain composed and unemotional.

You are a great friend and lover. You don't demand much of others.

While you are quiet, you have a subtle wit that your friends know well.



At your worst, you are lazy and unwilling to work at anything.

You often get stuck in a rut, without aspirations or dreams.

You can get too dependent on others, setting yourself up for abandonment.



I would say most of that is true. I'm not exactly lazy at my worst, but am easily distracted into working really hard at things I don't necessarily have to do, avoiding the things I don't want to do. Everything gets done, though, if I owe it to someone. Not sure about the quiet, though, except in a physical sense. Even then, people comment on my laugh (in a good way!)

Saturday, December 03, 2005

Carnivalesque 11

Carnivalesque 11



I'd like to start off this carnival with a short comment on the blogging medievalists out there. This academic term seems to have taken its toll on most of the ones I know. I've had to extend my reach to find new and different medievalists blogging about things medieval, because lots of us seem to be blogging more about teaching the Middle Ages. And because it's the end of term for many of us, and I know that many readers are coming to take quick breaks between periods of frantic marking (I've got thirty 10-page papers to mark by Monday, and finals start Tuesday; a friend is in the middle of a pile of about 400 exams!), I've decided to focus on a particularly Carnivalesque Button theme -- this is an Ancient/Medieval carnival of quirks and cheer, of short reads and, well, because I am today's mistress of misrule -- the carnival of Stuff I Like! I hope you like it, too!*


I don't have HBO. And I'm also not in the UK. This means that I have not had a chance to see the HBO series, Rome. This has made it difficult for me to answer my uncle's weekly questions about the accuracy of the series. Fortunately, I'm now off the hook. Glaukôpidos offers commentary on the whole series, as well as her own take on its accuracy. And while she's right about it not being a documentary, and a series purely for the purpose of entertainment, Tony Keen at Memorabilia Antonina has a slightly different outlook. The series really has a few folks riled. Alterior at Fascinating History, which deals with some incredibly interesting topics, is also not impressed. I'm looking forward to the series on DVD in a slightly squeamish way. Love Ciaran Hinds, the star, but just hate it when stories that are intrinsically interesting get turned into 'tales of sex and intrigue' because people think it sells better. Really. I ask you. How is it that directors think the rise and fall of C. Julius Caesar, not to mention the entire career of Octavian, need to be padded with probably false licentious detail? The political intrigue and the personalities were not enough? Sheesh!

But if you must have sex and crime in the Ancient World, then perhaps it would be good to remember the case of Phyrne. Laura at Clews reminds us of the details.


Looking for something slightly more academic, but still a bit quirky? How about the treatment of depression in Rome? Michael at Laudator Temporis Acti gives us the beginning of an explanation and Michael at Curculio clarifies it.

Not so into bad TV or ancient shock therapy? Feeling a bit guilty that you haven't been keeping up? Well, Phil Harland at Religions of the Ancient Mediterranean brings us up to date on the Megiddo Mosaics. I've linked to my favorite post -- the one with the pictures -- but all of the posts are very interesting.

If you've been keeping up with things here at Blogenspiel, you'll know that those of us who focus on Late Antiquity and the Early Middle Ages are constantly concerned with the use of words like "Germans" and "Barbarians" and "Migrations." Athena at Rites of Passage goes even further back in time to really confuse the issue by updating us on Ancient DNA and the First Europeans. Turns out it's not just the "German" thing that boils medievalist blood: In Bad History Childeric expounds on misapprehensions about the Celts and Pagan Festivals. Just a quick step away from misapprehension is misappropriation. Let's all say, one more time, America is not the new Rome.


I mentioned above that many of the medievalists have been posting more about teaching medieval than about things medieval in and of themselves. Since I am the mistress of this carnival, I thought I'd add my own notes to the pile.

Normally in the first part of the survey I teach the Song of Roland as a sort of capstone. I use the Glyn Burgess translation, as it's accessible and affordable. Why Roland, when there are so many other chansons de geste? My students will have already read many documents pertaining to the problematically named Germanic peoples at Paul Halsall's Internet Medieval Sourcebook. Through those documents, they will have become somewhat familiar with inheritance; social status; justice and conflict resolution in terms of compensation and wergeld, feud, and ordeal; the importance of public ritual in non-literate societies; and any number of other things they've teased from the documents. They will also have read a series of documents on Islam and on Muslim/Christian interactions from varying viewpoints over time. Because I am cruel and the 8th Amendment does not apply in my classroom, they will have read Einhard. Finally, they will have read documents pertaining to the Crusades. In this context, Roland seems the perfect reading to leave them with. It is in some ways the medieval equivalent of the modern mass appeal historical movie. The students have a familiarity with many of the details in the story, as well as a greater temporal context for those details. They can (or should be able to) note anachronisms and the misappropriation of history for a popular audience. Whether that misappropriation is intentional is a matter for discussion, one that can often lead to a fruitful idea of what history is and how it is often a combination of traditions passed on and deliberate construction. I hope it helps them to remember there are differences between 'historical' and 'history.'

Not sure? Here's an Alternate History Fridays take on the story of William Tell -- it might be
argued that this story is neither! For yet another take on the misappropriation of history, Carl Pyrdum at Got Medieval lets us in on how to act like a knight -- not!

This is a topic that's been on literary minds lately as well. Gillian Polack offers us a couple of opinions, the first brought on by yet another discussion of the ius primae noctis, and the second on trying for the authentic in the fantasy novel. Speaking of fantasy (and since I'm the hostess, we shall speak of it), Michael Drout reminds us of Tolkein's own historical and philological roots. Still unconvinced about the crossover? That's all right, because Scott Nokes has some comments on the history of Tolkein snobbery.

It's possible that some people might not like the inclusion of Tolkein-y things in the carnival on the grounds that Philology isn't History. Well, for us Ancient/Medieval types, who have to do lots of our work in languages dead, Michael Drout again provides assistance: King Alfred's Grammar Really Works!. This might come of use to Ancarett, who's been teaching things Anglo-Saxon and Latin. Think I'm kidding about the languages? Pecia provides a wonderful look at the kinds of manuscripts medievalists get to work with. It's actually just a brilliant resource all round. And if you're a medievalist, you should be able to cope with the fact that it's in French! Speaking of French-language sites, you might also want to know that Blitztoire has moved and been re-born as Médiévizmes. French not your best language? Archaeo-News-Blog might be more to your tastes -- it's in German! OK, it's also in English.

Speaking of tastes, I thought it might be nice to leave you with a couple of posts on food, one ancient, and one medieval. First, an ancient recipe for pork with truffles from Homo Edax. Then, in what is probably the only medieval history (and not historical) post in this entire carnival, owlfish tells us about how watermills affected the use of spelt in our diets.



Think it's all over? It almost is. But since it's the holidays and all, and reindeer are pretty non-denominational, I give you Rudolph the Red-nosed Reindeer in Latin!

Thanks for coming. Next time, it'll be longer. I promise.




*By the way, this carnival would not have been possible without the generosity of Alun at archaeoastronomy and Laura at Clews, who both sent me suggestions above and beyond the call of duty.